I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki Baek Sehee

I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a raw, introspective memoir by Baek Sehee, a young social media director who struggles with depression, anxiety, and the weight of her public persona. As she navigates her high-pressure career and personal challenges, she starts seeing a psychiatrist to untangle the complex feelings that hold her back.

Over the course of 12 weeks, Baek records her sessions, offering an honest and unflinching look at her internal battle. She questions her worth, wrestles with self-doubt, and reflects on the emotional exhaustion of pretending to be fine. Yet, in the midst of her pain, she finds moments of comfort in small joys—like her love for tteokbokki, a spicy rice cake dish that offers a fleeting taste of happiness.

This book is both a personal journey of self-exploration and an accessible guide to understanding mental health struggles. It offers comfort and insight for those experiencing similar feelings of isolation, while providing a sense of connection and hope. I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a poignant and relatable narrative about the complexity of human emotion and the path to healing